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*excuse my use of profanity… old habits are resurfacing -.-;;

The last last week of finals as an undergrad. this is what my thoughts said…

Oh sh**, it’s 8 in the morning

I wake up, don’t bother with personal hygiene

I can only sense the stress and tension building 

Up til the last fu**in moment

The fast ticking time enjoying my torment 

My vision is getting blurry 

I know if I don’t get my act together I’ll be sorry

But studying is seriously a pain in the ass that’s it’s name

Turning me insane throughout and within the membrane of my brain

I’m just glad it’s the last scene of the undergrad show

I sense that the curtain call is waiting to blow

But the ending act isn’t going to be pretty though

Just give me a moment to catch my breath before I go

There will be blood, there will be sweat

But there ain’t gonna be any shedding of my tears yet

My mind is wandering so freakin’ hard

I swear the blank look on my face is making me look like a retard

The four years of fu**in college has just flown by

This moment in life has come too soon, I ain’t gonna lie

All the good byes, the farewell cries, the reminiscent sighs

Man, I ain’t even prepared for that emotional sh**

The bittersweetness of it all is leaving a weird aftertaste in my spit

I’m supposed to be studying for my effing finals - not doing this

Oh crap, I mean seriously, I barely have time to go piss

College can really facilitate your development of A.D.D.

No wonder why I always see Christian Dior’s fu**in initials C and D 

I’m so busy and the lack of sleep is making me dizzy

The piled up assignments is driving me crazy

Gotta chill with friends, watch movies, pig out late at night

I’ve become a fat ass in college and that ain’t right

Time to hit the gym and work out those stubborn calories

But in the end, I’m begging the question: just one more bag of chips please?

McComas is only a 5 minute drive, a 20 minute run 

Unfortunately, at the moment anything else besides that sounds like fun

And tonight, I gotta a feeling that I weigh like a freaking ton

Oh Tech, I’ll miss your four hour fu**in drive

All those times I fell asleep on the road and almost didn’t survive

Swerving left and right, on the lookout for cops and deers

When I see the exit sign for 118B, it is like music to my ears

I’m going to remember the exciting football games held at Lane Stadium

The hype song “Enter the Sandman” can get anyone high and then some
(the first version of this line was too inappropriate LOL)

Now let me talk about CCF which was like a second home to me - my family

I’m going to miss every single one of my brothers and sisters in the ministry

If they don’t flex me next year when I come, I will be in misery

God has definitely taken me on one incredible, memorable, educational journey

The bumpy roller coaster ride that truly broke and humbled me

I know that even now I have still a long ways to go

But as long as I keep my faith and hope, God’s got my back fo sho

And now gravity is pulling me back down to reality

Time to crunk up my study jam playlist to maintain my sanity

All that’s running in my head is: I’m so ready for the freakin’ Weeknd (pun intended)

The weekend of graduation where it is all gonna end

So until then…

Fighting. Let’s kick ass and pass!

So we can start the new era for the 2012 Class 

Ch-Yeah >:)
(LOL sorry I just had to add the line in here)

Got this awesome idea from a random blog I bookmarked. Hopefully by doing this, I can start hoping for the future and actually look forward to it. :)

100 things to do before I die:

1. develop an intimate relationship with Christ
2. become a physician and get my MD/OD
3. move to California
4. work in a hospital
5. commit to medical missions all across the world
6. serve in Ecuador for 1-2 years
7. travel to Europe (Greece, Italy, Spain, Rome, France, Switzerland)
8. read through the entire Bible
9. have a bachelorette party in Puerto Rico
10. get married to a guy that has an awesome AND radical love for God
11. have a “perfect date”
12. travel around the world (go to all the 10 restaurants with spectacular views)
13. become fluent in Spanish
14. learn Chinese and go visit my parents 
15. learn how to drive stick and own a manual car
16. own a chocolate labrador
17. get into the habit of running every day
18. find a good jazz bar
19. start my own food blog
20. take a pottery class
21. design my own house (kitchen, library, bedroom)
22. own a herb and vegetable garden
23. train and run a marathon
24. take a cooking class with my future husband
25. attend an NBA championship game
26. go to an NFL game
27. visit Spain and participate in la Tomatina 
28. visit Korea during the Mud Festival
29. attend the Jazz Raggae Festival in California
30. do something crazy in Australia like bungee jumping
31. become a talented photographer 
32. own a horse and learn how to ride 
33. sky diving
34. convert to a mac
35. ride first class in an airplane
36. get a brazilian wax
37. paint a canvas to hang up in my own apartment
38. attend a dance studio in California
39. own a pair of Ray Bands
40. go on a cruise
41. make my own DIY bracelet
42. have beautiful children (doesn’t matter how many)
43. go to a sold out concert and scream my guts out
44. make my own special recipe
45. brew my own alcohol and start a collection
46. travel to each continent including Antarctica
47. get into graffiti
48. send my parents to their honeymoon (bc they never been on one)
49. go to Cherry Blossom Festival in D.C.
50. reach my weight goal
51. go to the shooting range
52. go scuba diving at an exotic beach
53. attend a Washington Capital’s hockey game
54. watch the sunrise with my significant other
55. read a ton of books and collect them
56. get back into piano and teach my future kids how to play
57. get married by age 28
58. write a book and get it published
59. get into Farmer’s Market
60. cook often, cook well, and try new things
61. learn to love more
62. be renewed by God’s love every single day
63. learn how to properly do make up
64. learn to love myself and take care of my body
65. go sailing on a boat
66. hike the Half-Dome trail again and actually climb the whole darn rock
67. take a romantic getaway to Vancouver randomly
68. visit Switzerland with Joyce
69. get good at snowboarding and go often
70. try out a ton of different restaurants so I can blog about it
71. take a spontaneous trip to NYC just to eat
72. meet Jeremy Lin :)
73. meet Hugh Jackman and get his autograph 
74. retire to a different country 
75. die with a smile on my face - knowing I lived a full life (there is no telling of tomorrow)
76. attend art exhibits of famous artists
77. ride a hot air balloon
78. fly a kite
79. learn how to surf
80. live on my own for a while - get my own apartment
81. never take anything for granted
82. have my great grandmother attend my wedding ceremony
83. go dog-sledding
84. drive around in a race track 
85. attend a fashion show
86. learn how to ride a motorcycle
87. rock a short hair cut
88. be happy

I could only fill up until 88 - 8 seems like my lucky number so I’ll just leave it at that. This list took almost 2 or 3 weeks and I struggled a lot to fill it out. However, I guess I can always add to it if something pops up. :) I highly encourage everyone to take up this challenge. Good luck!